In response to this video from System Demons Daily. I first want to thank the system demons and the desteni people who worked on the site for making the system videos so accessable.Thanks guys
So, this video was very clear, I understood it completely and was able to see inside myself today, noticing these things. Especially when the system said that the body usually presents systems as pain.
Today, I was talking with my dad about the way I don't understand how the soil can make life. I was amazed today, because such a small, shriveled oooolllddd seed can make something amazing like a tomato that can then taste delicious for me. It's just uncomprehensible right now, to me, because the soil is just a bunch of dirt, and it can nourish the small seed, along with water, to create life. Amazing.
So I asked my dad how? and he said that even scientists don't know. Then he said that in the future, maybe sometime later, in hundreds of years perhaps, we will know. That really touched something inside me and I began to get irritated. I said that "sometime later" is never. He said that We are able to see and know about atoms, while a couple thousand years ago, that was incomprehensible. So, he said it's all achievable. That really got me going, for some reason, (I was shocked I was mad) as he said that for people who lived in caves (so long ago), I was GOD. I said that I'm not god, but he said that for them I would have been. As I got more angry, I got a sharp pain in my nose (not too painful) but it hurt.
That's when I realized!!! The video I posted above, and a video I watched years ago about the body points in relation to systems helped me. Pain is the system activating in me in relation to god, especially to god, since the nose point has something to do with god and giving power away to god. This was amazing. So, in conclusion, in the anger about god, I give my power away or accept and allow myself to give my power away to "god", knowing it and then getting angry about it.
So, following the video's instruction, which I understand will definately work if done completely and honestly, I must now see where this "giving away power" to god originated from. How I did it, why, in what situation do I do it? Who do I associate giving away my power to god with?
This is a bit hard, actually. But right now, I want to release myself from that system of "give power away to god", and the anger I allowed. One other point is that I experience pain during self-forgiveness sometimes, can anyone share insight into that?
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see god as superior to me, to my parents, to my world. (I'm feeling some pain in my left leg, like stabbing pain, but it quickly disappears)
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate myself with my parents in a way that makes me see myself as them, and act like them, and judge myself according to them. When god is superior to them, then it is superior to me. (pain under my left rib, and some under right)
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not do self-forgiveness in the moment of aggression towards my father and "god". (slight pain in back bottom side of back)
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe in the idea of god, and to belive that if my parents are affected by "god", then I HAVE to be affected as well.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that anyone, or anything, or any god can have any power over me. (slight pain in heart)
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to (pain in "chicken wing bone" in my back) believe that I can give my power away to fate, to god, to my father or mother, to this world. (more left rib pain, right rib aches)
that's it for now. Thanks you again.
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