System Demons Realizations

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s2quf2GklhI

In response to this video from System Demons Daily. I first want to thank the system demons and the desteni people who worked on the site for making the system videos so accessable.Thanks guys

So, this video was very clear, I understood it completely and was able to see inside myself today, noticing these things. Especially when the system said that the body usually presents systems as pain.

Today, I was talking with my dad about the way I don't understand how the soil can make life. I was amazed today, because such a small, shriveled oooolllddd seed can make something amazing like a tomato that can then taste delicious for me. It's just uncomprehensible right now, to me, because the soil is just a bunch of dirt, and it can nourish the small seed, along with water, to create life. Amazing.
So I asked my dad how? and he said that even scientists don't know. Then he said that in the future, maybe sometime later, in hundreds of years perhaps, we will know. That really touched something inside me and I began to get irritated. I said that "sometime later" is never. He said that We are able to see and know about atoms, while a couple thousand years ago, that was incomprehensible. So, he said it's all achievable. That really got me going, for some reason, (I was shocked I was mad) as he said that for people who lived in caves (so long ago), I was GOD. I said that I'm not god, but he said that for them I would have been. As I got more angry, I got a sharp pain in my nose (not too painful) but it hurt.

That's when I realized!!! The video I posted above, and a video I watched years ago about the body points in relation to systems helped me. Pain is the system activating in me in relation to god, especially to god, since the nose point has something to do with god and giving power away to god. This was amazing. So, in conclusion, in the anger about god, I give my power away or accept and allow myself to give my power away to "god", knowing it and then getting angry about it.

So, following the video's instruction, which I understand will definately work if done completely and honestly, I must now see where this "giving away power" to god originated from. How I did it, why, in what situation do I do it? Who do I associate giving away my power to god with?

This is a bit hard, actually. But right now, I want to release myself from that system of "give power away to god", and the anger I allowed. One other point is that I experience pain during self-forgiveness sometimes, can anyone share insight into that?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see god as superior to me, to my parents, to my world. (I'm feeling some pain in my left leg, like stabbing pain, but it quickly disappears)
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate myself with my parents in a way that makes me see myself as them, and act like them, and judge myself according to them. When god is superior to them, then it is superior to me. (pain under my left rib, and some under right)
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not do self-forgiveness in the moment of aggression towards my father and "god". (slight pain in back bottom side of back)
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe in the idea of god, and to belive that if my parents are affected by "god", then I HAVE to be affected as well.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that anyone, or anything, or any god can have any power over me. (slight pain in heart)
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to (pain in "chicken wing bone" in my back) believe that I can give my power away to fate, to god, to my father or mother, to this world. (more left rib pain, right rib aches)

that's it for now. Thanks you again.

Playing God

http://topdocumentaryfilms.com/playing-god/ The documentary

After watching a documentary called "Playing God", I have a very unsettling feelings inside me, but when I look at the "future" where minds and people are controlled competely through machines, I realize that it is nothing different from what is already in our own world, as we are controlled by the mind system, which in essense is a machine. People are not changing at all, and they try to find more and more technological solutions to everything, when the answer is already here inside themselves, self-forgiveness, self directive application, breathe, equality, oneness, self expression.
Will we collectively as a humanity use these tools to sort ourselves and our world out? NO, of course not. Scientists can prove these don't exist, even though they know they do. Religious peope will argue that only God can fix things, you shouldn't go against God. Besides that, it is too hard to face oneself in self-honesty. It's too hard. So, everyone makes every possible exuse not to.

I want to discuss the implications that this "amazing" control over living beings will give us, if it is applied throughout the world.
First, if i consider the point that all of this work is plain manipulation and control, it is clear that we are not fixing anything, just adding to the mess.
Second, the control of life, really is playing god. The whole idea of god is based on inequality, abuse, suffering, so we will not get anything supportive out of it, and everyone will most likely suffer.
Third, knowing the "human nature" everyone is super full of, the control of the dna will definately be abused. All the world around us is based on one thing: abuse of another, the strongest is best and always wins, the most wealthy will control, and so on. Imagining one corporation or maybe multiple implanting viruses and proteins into humans and animals so that they can be even more robot like. Fuck, this will be the mind system in the living flesh! And the machines will be the only thing exisiting. Ta da, the complete abuse and destruction of life completed! Don't we all just love that? Amazing powers for everyone!, but of course the condition is to be zombified first.

A point came up inside me about other people and how they might think that this is a good thing if it can be used in medicine and technology, to protect and give health etc. This is actually my own point and my own mind system mind fucking with me. Thinking about it again, in self-honesty, what will we gain if we can beat cancer? Autism? If we can "cure" it, nothing will change, because we will not face the problem. It is the same as drinking advil while having menstruation pains, and not realizing where in the world they come from? We are going to run away from the problem even more than we have already?!

NO, we must stand here and face all we have allowed, all we have accepted as ourselves, such as menstruation pains for example, or headaches, or cancer, or sadness or loneliness. Everything must be faced, and the world must be fixed by our own hands, not by slave bacterias who will quickly suck it all up into themselves because we have programmed them to.

To myself: STOP RUNNING AWAY FROM THE PROBLEM!

What is Love?

What is Love? I don't know. I cannot tell you with extreme certainty right away because I'm not sure.
All throughout the world, and the way kids (systematic honesty) see it is as a feeling that you feel in your heart, soul and mind that is so............(this is where the inexplainable part comes, and is left as a blank, left for you to think you understand it for yourself).

Lately, though I've been noticing many things that signify love and also signify blindness, inequality, and lack of common sense.
For example, the process of choosing one's partner. This process is very important and deliberate for some, and easy for others, and it is choosing the one that you truly love. What does this mean? Basically, you get to choose the best candy in the candy shop, the one that you love the most, the one that is just right for you, the one you can't live without (drug), and you get to suck on it throughout both your lives. You get to have that sweetness of the candy and suck it all away with time. The tough time comes when the other person also sucks at you of course. That's when relationships fall apart. Haha. 
During this process, you, or should I say your mind system, that "mind" that you have, your opinions on life, the way you act, the things you like, the risk level you are willing to take, the everything that makes you you, (not really) chooses another that is alike. So, we basically search for the matching boot over there somewhere, someone just like you, someone who you can finish sentences with, someone who you can accept, because they are nothing more or less than your mind system. All the programs you hold in you, all the fears, joys, expectations, sadnesses, disappointnesses and other programs. You search for that one. The one just for you. The one just like you.

IT might seem completely normal, but in reality, this is insane. Is this love? Is this love? Is it?
No. Why not? Bc you don't love the other person at all, you just love yourself, your opinions, your mind system, you agree and help them because they are like you. You feel sympathy and kindness towards them because they are like you (you actually feel it for yourself), you love them because they give you pleasure, because they're like you, you enjoy them, because they're like you.

I asked this of someone I respect, "when you love, you'd give up your life for that person if necessary, right? But, you'd have to not feel pleasure while doing so, right?" The person said "It would give you pleasure and a sense of accomplishment and this "love" feeling to give up your life for them". So I repeated myself and said, "and if it doesn't give you the feeling of pleasure?" The person thought. And stayed quiet.  I said "you wouldn't do it, right?" The person quickly responded with, "True love is very rare." An exuse, huh? Yes, it's hard to love something you don't like. Because that's not love, is it?

If you don't like it, you don't love it. Love in our world, in all its aspects=egoism and blindness.

I noticed that pairs look and think alike some time ago, at a school dance, when it was like playing a matching computer game. One short, one short, one tall, one tall, one skinny, one skinny, one fat, one fat.  No change, not seeing each other as equal at all, no understanding, no self work at all.

When one says something, the other echoes it, when one makes fun, the other supports. Blind ppl, unable to see ALL the points of view, not even the polar oppisites, they only see one.


I noticed something for the first time in my life today, because today was valentine's day, and ppl were recieving roses from their friends and lovers through a delivery system we have especially for this day, in my school. They got a rose, and they were all suprised, and their face would light up, and they were happy and all the good things. At first I noticed a jealousy point starting up within me, since I didnt' get any roses, but then I somehow realized that "what's in a rose?"

Am I any different from having not received the rose? Am I changed? Am I less worth now in any way? Are the ppl who received roses any different now? Is the rose an all powerful token or should I say medal of "love"? NO, when I looked at the rose, it looked quite normal, and more like a poor dead flower than anything else. I've felt this "joy" of having gifts given to you and feeling "special" more than a couple times. But, now, I was there and saw that that "special" doesn't exist, and didn't exist in that moment at all. Ppl were going crazy looking at their roses, and I was feeling sorry for the roses, it's like the roses were warped in ppls minds into some magical objects of affection. Roses are roses. Roses are not "magical medals of love, affection, happiness and specialness". Roses are beings who have been grown quickly, cut and delivered, dying in ppl's hands.

This kind of "warpness" is the same in many aspects of one's life, and especially the first stages of love. When one falls in love, one usually warps the other person in their mind to suit their "best" point of view of "perfection". Ppl who are falling in love look at each other as though both are angels and the best in the world. It's happened to me sometimes, and there is a very bright feeling, joyful, happy, but untrue and warped. When you love someone, you don't even SEE them, how can u possibly understand them?

Somehow, we've warped the whole concept of love as well, and now judge pleasure to be the amount of love for someone. When a mother looks at her child and smiles, that means the mother loves her child, to us. But doesn't her child give her pleasure? What if it didn't, what if it was just a child she picked up and wanted nothing to do with, would she still love that child? Would the child herself be somebody different?

Love exists alot, but real caring rarely does. Real Caring I saw with animals. When a a fox I think stood in the middle of the street next to his/her dying/dead friend who was probably hit by a car, and was guarding him/her. No matter how dangerous, and how uncomfortable it was for that fox, she didn't leave. Did that fox experience a druglike addiciton to her dead friend? I dont' know, but I'd guess not, bc animals don't usually develop that. Did the fox enjoy protecting the dead body from cars and scary ppl? I don't think so. I'm not sure but I would guess not.

The fox, and all animals at that, seem to be just HERE. And stand firm in absolute honesty with themselves, with the situation, in absolute awareness and just "here". Real Caring of someone or about someone is what I think love is, but i don't know as of right now. I definately know, though that love is nothing to do with Real Caring.

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